Do Our Souls Get Re-Set When We're Born? My Musings on Reincarnation
For many of us coming to terms with the realization that we are who are, it is sometimes a journey that can take most of our lives to achieve. Sometimes we never find out who are inside, because many of us are afraid to look deep inside and face ourselves.
We go about living life as we are taught by the world around us and often hide away who are really are in the process of simply trying to fit into society. We bury the true identities of our souls so deep that we ourselves begin to forget who we really are and what our real purpose is. Sometimes it tends to feel like we are really living in a dream state, just going through the steps we are taught we must take in this life to survive and blend in mechanically although our hearts are never in it. It becomes a blur, and sometimes it can feel like life is moving forward and the world is spinning around you and yet your standing in the middle lost among shadows standing still. We often feel lost…confused, like we're missing something. Much like trying to complete a puzzle without the box as a guide to go by and you just can't see what the bigger picture is because you can't find the missing pieces.
This is what so many of us go through who have lived before. Many of us old souls tend to have fragmented memories that carry over with our souls into our current life. These memories, the emotions and ties to who we used to be in the lives we used to live still linger in our souls touching our subconscious minds. In this time we are so used to technology…think of your soul as a hard drive. Your soul is who you are, it is your personality, the very essence of YOU. Our subconscious minds are linked to our souls. Each time we live we fill our subconscious with new data. When we die our physical selves die but our soul does not. When we are chosen to be reborn, our soul gets reset to factory mode, deleting all the data we had collected in lives lived as well as after we died.
Just like with technology however, you have to question…when something is deleted, is there still some trace of it somewhere out there in the web? Yes. The same goes with our souls and subconscious. Often after we are reborn although our memories are lost, there are still traces, still fragmented pieces of our old selves that linger haunting us in our current life. We spend so much time feeling confused and lost trying to recover and hunt down this missing data, that often we spend more of this life re-learning and teaching ourselves about who we used to be and things we used to know and do than actually living for the moment.
I am a firm believer in reincarnation, or whatever term one may use for being reborn into new lives. I have no doubt that this happens, I have remembered and taught myself over the past few lifetimes to leave and look for signs to remember who I am, although it hasn't been an easy path to take and may seem like cheating. Sometimes I still have doubts about who I am and what my purpose is. Recently I started to wonder, maybe I am too set on trying to rediscover who I was in order to fully accept who I am.
Maybe we are "reset" during birth to factory mode for a reason. Yes, it does feel unfair to have to do everything all over. It's like playing a really long board game and then once you finally see that finish line in view….smack…back to the beginning you go! Maybe it is Heaven's way of giving us all a second chance and trying to erase the score board and give us a full do-over. Having known what you knew before would be "cheating". The question is if you didn't remember taking that wrong turn and had a chance to do it over, would you still pick that same path? It's like a test to see if we can figure things out for ourselves without being offered clues if we are heading in the right direction. Basically we can't even offer ourselves clues by remembering…no! Don't go that way DANGER! Take the other path stupid! We just have to keep going and going until we finally figure it out thinking that we did it for the first time even though we probably took that wrong turn like a million times and just don't remember it.
So when does the cycle stop? Does it ever stop? That is a good question. One that I don't think we are meant to have the answers to.
I believe that we are born with a certain mission, with some type of goal we are meant to accomplish here on Earth. The tricky part is once born we have to go about blindly trying to figure out what it is and accomplish it without "cheating". If we die before we are able to full fill what we were meant to do, I think we are sent back into similar circumstances and given the opportunity again until we can full fill what it is that we were originally meant to do. Sounds vague right? That is the frustrating part. I really felt, maybe if I'm honest with myself still feel that remembering helps. Who we were is still who we are, we may look different, maybe we have a different family, or born into a different place or setting than our previous lives but our souls…they are still the same now as they were then. We are the same person we were just thrown into a different story. In some ways we are like actors, they are the same person just playing different roles based on whatever movie or TV show they are playing in. Does that change who they really are on the inside? No. Does it make it hard for them to find their true selves after playing so many different characters? I'm no movie star but I bet it does!
So what happens if we finally do accomplish what we are meant to? We reach the finish line without being sent back? Do we move forward? Do we get new stories to live out? A new mission to complete and the cycle starts over again until we finish this new goal? Do we become something else?
I once read a version of King Arthur that depicted Merlin as a man who had been born knowing. He was brought back to Earth will all his full memories of previous lives lived. This is what the "name" Merlin stood for, Merlin wasn't his actual name but a name he was given meaning simply that "he remembered". I'm not 100% sure where I read this, I want to say it was in a book, maybe The Mists of Avalon by Marion Zimmer Bradley, maybe it was somewhere else. That connected with me though. It felt "true". Maybe at least once we finish and we have finally proven ourselves we are free to remember. No more resets. If we come back to Earth we can come back knowing what we knew before and who we are and spend less time re learning and more time helping and doing what we were sent to do.
